2.20 am in the 2012 , don't try to check if its some kinda symmetry as its not.Again today felt like i should be blogging something down.Its been almost 10 days since i have living alone in this big house and almost interacting with no 1 except ..few calls here and there to tell some of my friends that yeah i am alive.
Just watched band baaja baraat and felt somehow good and somehow bad too , btw the movie was good according to bollywood standards and have to appreciate both lead characters role which was portrayed very realistically i must say and at time it did ring the similarity bells in my ears .
You meet this great girl in ur 1st job in chandigarh and you work together, roam the streets nd gardens of chandigarh , discuss everything under the sun and party together except the party that girl gives to the whole gang and you back out coz you have to meet and help a friend of yours for accommodation and all of a sudden in a few days in the next month you decide to leave that job with out telling her the reason and she being the dignified girl she asks about my quiting through some of my common friends.I was such a dick and this fucking movie seems to remind me of that month, when the lead actor in a scene where he was thinking and when his helper asks if he is alright , he tells that he is an ass( not the double cheeked 1, but the real 1), its the story of many a good guys i am sure, who couldn't understand how to react and the girl just waits for reaction if none then moves on only to realise later on that both were wrong.
Enough of senti stuff, i was trying to justify my decision to go for economics major but the preparation seem to be going slower then i would like it to be and staying alone seems to make this journey slower, except for current stuff i need to get a hold of myself and do g.s stuff very diligently.Part of me think if i had made a mistake of going in this way, i mean if luck would have had my way then i could also be have been working in CSC and not worry about all the shit i had to go through this past year and worry about the next expenditure , but part of me never wanted to live those rosy tainted life where everything seems to be hunky dorky from outside but in the inside its pure bat shit stuff goin on, ur ass is in the line of fire 5 days a week if not 6 and for whom are u working your ass off??, for some shitty prick who also followed that same path of butt licking lifestyles to arrive at that managerial post.
I can safely say that i need not feed my father in the sence that my father has got a stable job and hence that luckily gives me the freedom to follow a path i wish to and dad has been till now agreeing to all my whims and fancies , coz many in India or for that matter in the world does not have this freedom.One thing that i have seen is that people compromise on their life and lead a life that would otherwise not have lead had they had the brains to think about what they actually want to do in life, this is particularly true in a country like India where competition is so intense in most fields if not all.
I have been watching lots of movies lately thanks to idmb and piratebay.org and pure boredom of living alone talking to no 1 and guys like deff in pirate bay who uploads these cool 300-400 mb movies so download takes less of a time and few of them were really good for eg. 50/50 ,bridesmaid,crazy stupid love, a lonely place to die,horrible boss,death at a funeral etc now i wish to start doing what needs to be done.1 thing that i learned is that life is much more brutal then one can imagine, its really bad ,so if u think that oneday you would become what ever you wanted to become it might so easily become untrue and no one would bat an eyelid for that(i mean why and who would ), unfulfilled wishes are i think the most common things happening to any thinking species on earth and its so common that sometimes its really scary but remaining strong is the option you have got for any chance of getting to what you would really like to get.Other wise the easy often trodden path is always there like a drain in the sideways of a road that are there ,if u can't walk in the road then alist you could squirm your way through the shitty drains
btw i learned to cook rice living alone besides the maggi egg bhurji combo i have seem to perfect
drains and bhurji seems a mismatch but wtfkkkkkkkkkkk
Just watched band baaja baraat and felt somehow good and somehow bad too , btw the movie was good according to bollywood standards and have to appreciate both lead characters role which was portrayed very realistically i must say and at time it did ring the similarity bells in my ears .
You meet this great girl in ur 1st job in chandigarh and you work together, roam the streets nd gardens of chandigarh , discuss everything under the sun and party together except the party that girl gives to the whole gang and you back out coz you have to meet and help a friend of yours for accommodation and all of a sudden in a few days in the next month you decide to leave that job with out telling her the reason and she being the dignified girl she asks about my quiting through some of my common friends.I was such a dick and this fucking movie seems to remind me of that month, when the lead actor in a scene where he was thinking and when his helper asks if he is alright , he tells that he is an ass( not the double cheeked 1, but the real 1), its the story of many a good guys i am sure, who couldn't understand how to react and the girl just waits for reaction if none then moves on only to realise later on that both were wrong.
Enough of senti stuff, i was trying to justify my decision to go for economics major but the preparation seem to be going slower then i would like it to be and staying alone seems to make this journey slower, except for current stuff i need to get a hold of myself and do g.s stuff very diligently.Part of me think if i had made a mistake of going in this way, i mean if luck would have had my way then i could also be have been working in CSC and not worry about all the shit i had to go through this past year and worry about the next expenditure , but part of me never wanted to live those rosy tainted life where everything seems to be hunky dorky from outside but in the inside its pure bat shit stuff goin on, ur ass is in the line of fire 5 days a week if not 6 and for whom are u working your ass off??, for some shitty prick who also followed that same path of butt licking lifestyles to arrive at that managerial post.
I can safely say that i need not feed my father in the sence that my father has got a stable job and hence that luckily gives me the freedom to follow a path i wish to and dad has been till now agreeing to all my whims and fancies , coz many in India or for that matter in the world does not have this freedom.One thing that i have seen is that people compromise on their life and lead a life that would otherwise not have lead had they had the brains to think about what they actually want to do in life, this is particularly true in a country like India where competition is so intense in most fields if not all.
I have been watching lots of movies lately thanks to idmb and piratebay.org and pure boredom of living alone talking to no 1 and guys like deff in pirate bay who uploads these cool 300-400 mb movies so download takes less of a time and few of them were really good for eg. 50/50 ,bridesmaid,crazy stupid love, a lonely place to die,horrible boss,death at a funeral etc now i wish to start doing what needs to be done.1 thing that i learned is that life is much more brutal then one can imagine, its really bad ,so if u think that oneday you would become what ever you wanted to become it might so easily become untrue and no one would bat an eyelid for that(i mean why and who would ), unfulfilled wishes are i think the most common things happening to any thinking species on earth and its so common that sometimes its really scary but remaining strong is the option you have got for any chance of getting to what you would really like to get.Other wise the easy often trodden path is always there like a drain in the sideways of a road that are there ,if u can't walk in the road then alist you could squirm your way through the shitty drains
btw i learned to cook rice living alone besides the maggi egg bhurji combo i have seem to perfect
drains and bhurji seems a mismatch but wtfkkkkkkkkkkk
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