I am a jealous person,I am jealous at those who are sure of themselves.Those who know what to do and how to do it and consequently when to do it.I get jealous for their surety of their work specially the "when" part.I mean ,how do you know that the work that you are doing at the moment is the best work suited for that moment,how can you be so sure that you have fully and succinctly utilized your time so that you do not regret at all for the later moment.This brings me to another set of people who I am jealous about,these are those who live their life without regret ,who might ( or not) contemplate on their past life and never keep a guilt factor within themselves that might in any way affect their future course of action.I mean does the contemplating part and subsequent guilt,happiness,sadness and hosts of other features etc make us human beings.Isn't it the case that,if you don't think about your past or about how others might feel about your behavior towards them makes us some thing that resembles the characteristics of being labelled a less of a human.I mean,without going into the compassion,altruism,love for humanity like feelings I am talking about basic thoughts,thought about individual level about individuals.
I believe there are times when we think we are being judged (whether is real or imaginary is immaterial) and act an act that is anything but natural .This in a way affects the act itself that we are doing, more so in a negative manner.Sometimes I wonder,whats the best way to lead a life.Is it like a martial arts expert who keeps on practicing his skills in the sacred shoulin temples and then achieves mastery revered by all or a odissi dancer who keeps on perfecting her movements to such insane levels,but to an normal individual without knowledge of its intricate movements fails to appreciate the volcano of visual delight being thrown on him/her.Or a doctor who keeps on slogging hard in a hospital to save patients life but sometimes fails to do the same but still carry on operating on the next patients who might have had a lesser change of survival but somehow manages to pull off that patient.Or a social activist who leaves every comfort behind to fight for injustice against the system and in-turn affects his/her personal relationships or a upright politician/bureaucrat/journalist who might know how deep the "rabbit hole" goes and how dirty is this "rabbit hole" and instead of buckling down under pressure keeps on hammering down the mountain of systemic institutional failure that faces them.Or a greatly respected nobel prize winner who now thinks of themselves as belonging to this world not to any specific country,so their ideology is now to concentrate more on all of the worldly problems at his/her field of expertise instead of concentrating on any country as such or such a scholar who goes on searching for real truths of life through its research ,whose sole motto is to gift something precious to this human civilization which might be immensely beneficial or go on doing research just for the sake of academic excellence which might help advance human knowledge in total.
If such is the thinking of some of us humans,then is the good upbringing of our off-spring and taking care of our near and dear ones wrong???,if that is sometimes at the cost of others.Similar moral dilemma question came up at the recent "Dr.Savita" case where she lost her life due to pregnancy complications during operations as the country where she was operated at has laws that prohibits terminating a life of a foetus ( it was said that they are a catholic country,does that implies that they are a killer country where they would if require kill a person in order to save the unborn foetus-I know this is a naive and immature statement made for the context,but does that take away the fact that a healthy adult life was lost in the process of abiding a law with religious connotations)
With this comes another set of jealous persons who believe in the concept of "God".If any untoward unforeseen unpleasant or bad experience happens or about to happen,they take solace from the fact that,"God" would sail us through this tough moments of life.This dependence to "God" is something that gives them powers to face that event howsoever unpleasant that incident might have been.If in any kind of trouble "God" please help me out!! is the thought process that runs the minds.I am jealous of such person,they seem to unearth some hidden energy and courage,strength with this "the God" concept and apply to withstand ,sail through their problem.
I am engulfed in jealousy.
I believe there are times when we think we are being judged (whether is real or imaginary is immaterial) and act an act that is anything but natural .This in a way affects the act itself that we are doing, more so in a negative manner.Sometimes I wonder,whats the best way to lead a life.Is it like a martial arts expert who keeps on practicing his skills in the sacred shoulin temples and then achieves mastery revered by all or a odissi dancer who keeps on perfecting her movements to such insane levels,but to an normal individual without knowledge of its intricate movements fails to appreciate the volcano of visual delight being thrown on him/her.Or a doctor who keeps on slogging hard in a hospital to save patients life but sometimes fails to do the same but still carry on operating on the next patients who might have had a lesser change of survival but somehow manages to pull off that patient.Or a social activist who leaves every comfort behind to fight for injustice against the system and in-turn affects his/her personal relationships or a upright politician/bureaucrat/journalist who might know how deep the "rabbit hole" goes and how dirty is this "rabbit hole" and instead of buckling down under pressure keeps on hammering down the mountain of systemic institutional failure that faces them.Or a greatly respected nobel prize winner who now thinks of themselves as belonging to this world not to any specific country,so their ideology is now to concentrate more on all of the worldly problems at his/her field of expertise instead of concentrating on any country as such or such a scholar who goes on searching for real truths of life through its research ,whose sole motto is to gift something precious to this human civilization which might be immensely beneficial or go on doing research just for the sake of academic excellence which might help advance human knowledge in total.
If such is the thinking of some of us humans,then is the good upbringing of our off-spring and taking care of our near and dear ones wrong???,if that is sometimes at the cost of others.Similar moral dilemma question came up at the recent "Dr.Savita" case where she lost her life due to pregnancy complications during operations as the country where she was operated at has laws that prohibits terminating a life of a foetus ( it was said that they are a catholic country,does that implies that they are a killer country where they would if require kill a person in order to save the unborn foetus-I know this is a naive and immature statement made for the context,but does that take away the fact that a healthy adult life was lost in the process of abiding a law with religious connotations)
With this comes another set of jealous persons who believe in the concept of "God".If any untoward unforeseen unpleasant or bad experience happens or about to happen,they take solace from the fact that,"God" would sail us through this tough moments of life.This dependence to "God" is something that gives them powers to face that event howsoever unpleasant that incident might have been.If in any kind of trouble "God" please help me out!! is the thought process that runs the minds.I am jealous of such person,they seem to unearth some hidden energy and courage,strength with this "the God" concept and apply to withstand ,sail through their problem.
I am engulfed in jealousy.
