another arrow in the quilt

well, my preparation has well and truly began.It now seems this is all i have been doing all my life and that there is nothing unusual about the current precarious situation i am in.What situation you may ask?, well just as an humble man doesn't speak of his great deeds so also an embarrassed person, but so as to tell you the reality
-@ 24 i am still living with my parents
-social life has been replaced with just "life" and irony of the situation is that one of my optionals ( 2 optionals u have to choose for cse, the exam that i am preparing for) is sociology where i read about society , social thinkers, social interactions etc.Basically i am studing something that i am unable to experience. Of course, things like internet, telephone make it a lot easier and helps me to keep and restore my sanity but it would not be a over the top of a statement if i state that i do sometimes find my self on the other side of the line of sanity.
-no job (of course after quiting two)
-no physical activity, i am as if stuck to the room full of books and notes.
-but the clinching moment arrives when you find yourself like an alien in a party, function and specially marriage parties ( where the grooms may be of my age, if not guy then atlist the bride) and people start making enquiries and look up and down and i can sure read their mind that they are measuring me out in every possible angle (i am sure atlist professionaly or monetarily, i certainly wouldn't qualify and thank god for that)


but all this seems trivial for the cause that u have choosen.It seems people forget their roots so easily. Just to give an example (an international one)
if some foreigner comes to india and some how learns that a girl is being is married through arranged way then he/she would be surprized that arranged marriage still takes place in India( not that as if i support it), but the fact of the matter is though now, developed nations have mainly love marriage ( and subsequently hate divorces) it isn't a very old phenomenon occuring through centuries.Studing sociology i find that especially after WWII ended started the baby boom and since that period love marriage started to prosper through factors like govt. also encouraging married people to unmarried ones etc.
so before that , it was much the same everywhere and so the surprize shown by that foreigner is only surprising and if she/ he cared to learn her history/sociology he/she wouldn't have been so surprized.


specially in a place like township, i understand that people are well compensated by the govt. company and that they all lead a highly subsidised life like the BPL of our country ( lol on that).U ask what kinda subsidy, well let me tell u that these bunch of people receive subsidy on possibly everything u could think of and still have tenacity to crib about it( recently met a old guy{his son works here} sayin that he have shelled out few bucks for some special medicine that is not included in the hospital list and some time back ,when he had to go outside for treat ment, his son's medical expenditure exceeded and so had to pay a few bucks extra, i also argued with the old guy that the kind of discount a family of IOCL or other psu's are enjoying are very rare in India{normally i dont get into discussion with strangers, but this guy seemed to get hold of my precise nerve}).subsidy on electricity to such a low level that ac, microwave heater( both cooking and water) etc etc if remained switched for the whole month also would cost a minuscle amount, water is wasted here as if they are themselves producing it through some mechanism where there is no shortage and so gardens hoses are a common sight which would be overflowing .Many subsidy on housing tax and travelling subsidy.
Its as if people in township is leading an utopain life without any pain and hardwork and so the progenies coming out of here are a confused lot, my sister being no exception ( facebook and VHI on sight but alu paratha on hand).I wonder if there will be a day in India in future where the poorest of the poor leads a life like these people or atlist like the household workers who live here(i forgot to mention that there are separate quaters made for kaam waalis and their families in each of the duplex buildings made for managers)